We’re the same!

Talking to a few people close to my heart, I told them I feel like Lucky.  Lucky is my dog, she is a rescue dog paralyzed from the waist down. When I first found her, when I tried to pick her up, she ran away. I thought that was normal, she doesn’t know me, she’s...

Stabbing presence

They are gone, but they still control you. Not in the sense that they tell you what to do and what not to do, but their harm still extends even though they are not in your life anymore.  You sit there wondering what is wrong with you. Why you can’t just deal with life like...

Parallel efforts

Everyone around you all in good faith tell you a bunch of things, some tell you to go to sleep earlier, just cut out the junk food, make a bed time routine.  All good and well, but this won’t stop the heaviness you feel. The problem is that it’s like a persisting lake eroding the...

Too far gone

I need help and I don’t know how to ask for it. I’m too far gone.  I’m too far gone and the picture that has been painted of the decent human being that I am has become bullshit; a level that I can’t even put back together.  I didn’t paint this picture of a decent human,...

Processing Reality

You try and try and try, but all that comes out is silence. You hear everything, except your voice. Sometimes all that comes out are jumbled words, and people look at you with confusion.  Other times you actually end up doing the opposite of what you wanted to do. It’s not that you don’t want...

Drug of Choice

There's this disappointment that takes over your mind and fills up the insides of your gut, and it's just disappointment over disappointment over disappointment. The problem is that it's not only a feeling, it's your mind starting to tell you that you're never going to get out of this, that no matter how hard you...

Healing Hurts

I am not sure where we get the idea that time heals all wounds, that statement sort of dissolves the pain that you encounter while healing. The idea that time heals all wounds is one of the biggest lies that our culture has embedded within society. Time may allow for a scab to form over...

The Monkey Controlling You

"When you take a step in the right direction, all hell breaks loose." I never realized the extent to which the monkey truly will do everything to keep you where you are. What monkey? The one in your mind (click here).  You've grown to give him the spotlight, changes in your life means that you will...

He’s Controlling Your Mind!

Split was an excellent depiction of how real the different voices inside your head are. Sure, I know you'll say that you don't have Multiple Personality Disorder (MPD) or now what is known as Dissociative identity disorder (DID) ; but in my point of view, you sorta do. Everyone has different facets to their personality,...